Monday, October 25, 2010
I have discovered want I need and can no longer go with out. I have been busy and it has been amazing to see what God has done with my hands. But lately my physical body has been stressed and relief has literally been playing hide and seek.
For these next few months I am determined to stay as inactive as possible and SOAK........
I am so in need of His presence. I am so thirsty for His warmth. I do not want direction, I do not want "a word," I am not seeking wisdom, I am not looking for the next idea or plan, I am not asking for favor or seeking promotion. I am no longer praying for material things, the want of them has left a sour taste in my mouth. I am not searching for deep revelation or spiritual truth. I can no longer present my case to Him and plead for grace, I am left empty and devoid. I need no council or knowledge, I am not asking for strength or healing or comfort or peace....
I pray for just your presence...I pray for you, God. I long to be saturated by your loving embrace, to feel you holding onto me so tightly that I am engraved in the palm of your hand (Is. 49:10). I long just to behold your face, to see your eyes shine down on me, to hear you sing over me (Zeph 3:17). My only prayer is that you find me humble enough to visit me and to stay awhile. I am here, waiting upon you, the only desire of my soul. I love you and your presence is my only cure and I refuse to go anywhere without it.
SOAK: to become known to the mind or feelings, to absorb with one's mind or senses; to take in. To permeate thoroughly, to saturate.